brenda

2009-09-30T06:53:00.000-07:00

"THEY love you but THEY are not your lover
THEY care for you but THEY are not from your family
THEY are ready to share your pain but THEY are not in your blood relation
THEY are FRIENDS!

True friends scolds like a DAD
Cares like a MOM
Teases like a SISTER
Irritates like a BROTHER
and FINALLY loves you more than a lover

Do you know the relation between your two eyes?
They blink together,
Move together,
See things together&
Sleep together.
Though they nvr see each other,
Friendship should be just like that
Life is hell without Friends."

This is the LAST week of school!!

I'm definitly going to miss EVERYONE. *sobs*

i used to HATE this school .

there's a ginormous amount of reasons to hate school

BUT...

a 4-year relationship with the school isn't going to be seperated easily

all the bonding with classmates, schoolmates, juniors, teachers & almost everyone in the school including the cleaners were very solid.

Our cohort can be illustrated as the most bonded cohort of Compassvale sec

Almost everyone know each other in a way or another

Everyone can be linked up

My beloved J5 clique & the SHITTYS is going to be miss-ed by ME!

must keep in contact no matter what (:

someone once told me "the BEST friendship you ever have, are friendships built in secondary school"

I totally AGREE with it !!

Class of 4J is getting more & more bonded after the retreat

it may be a little too late, but it's not that late afterall as we still have a few days to accompany each other

we are supposed to bond, however, within one day so many conflicts happened!!

With just a blink an EYE, people started to settle everything once & for all

because school going to end? afraid that there's no more opportunities to confront.

XXX seems to be a sore in the eyes to everyone

& liars seems to be appearing everywhere.

I've always thought that people changed for the good

but i came into realisation that "a leopard never changes its spots"

What has this world become of ?! OMG!

someone once told me "people do change, it's only a matter of good or bad"

It was a shocking blow to me.

deeply hurt-ed...

2009-05-22T05:54:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS!
im back(:(:(:
prelim 1 over le !
i didnt really do very well for it. expected haix
tdy went school we had some of our papers checked
currently im failing 4 subjects. sure will meet e parents
idk how to tell them n im afraid of e dire consequences
during one of e days when i habing amaths n hist, i fell sick
i got a cold n was habing a terrible headache
at least i still came to sit for e paper
i noe my amaths cmi le cos when i sick i cnt do maths de
then having a terrible headache resulted in me forgetting all my contextual knowledge for hist
tdy when i get back my amaths im alrd prepared for it
the same goes to hist
but wad makes me fuming with anger was wad e marker who wrote comments on my paper
"do you noe ur hist at all?" , "surprisingly for a 4J STUDENT to score such low marks"
firstly, 4j student so wad?! i may not be good in humanities but i hab my other subjects
secondly, they dun noe wads my condition on dat day n they hab no rights to criticise on my knowledge for hist!
if i noe this were to happen i wont come to sch at all
at least i made e effort to do my best
my results alrd so bad le they still add salt to e wound
im gonna find out whose e teacher who marked my paper!
RAWR!!!
okayokay relax. hahas!
then aft sch ate lunch wif nat, simin, ken n jw
actually is eat dessert hahas (:
then when to walk ard cp
then went hm-ed
then slp until now! hahas (:
i really sound like a pig eh hahas (:

girl, cheer up^^ dun blame urself le

nobody noes wad was going to happen

this is part n parcel of life

i dun wan to see u so sad. cheer up (:

-------------------------------------------------------------

i wanted to talk to you

but ur reply was always so cold

tell me, tell me wad to do?

haix

2009-02-26T05:22:00.000-08:00

SUP HOMIE! :DDDDD
longggg time no update le -.-
cos actually nth special so nvr update +++ laziness...
HAHAHAHAAS!

TODAY
went to sch n then went to bandroom as usual
&& was in the midst of studying of my bio test -.-
i didnt study as i was busy the previous day .
sooo it was v. last min xp
during assembly, dat was when i noe dat SS/HIST asp was cancelled -.-
when actually e msg was conveyed days b4 ...
when walking to eng class, for mass lecture, kewei told me abt her dream -.-
then when we reached e AVA room, YEAH! we get to sit on the chair finally!!

bio test ... hmms
was ok at first, thought dat thr is abundant time
BUT when i reached e section on short essays qns, i didnt hab enuf time!!
so was rushing through those qns .
im gonna score badly for dat section ..haix

aft sch i rush hm to get my file for band .
it started to rain heavily .. && i had to walk in the rain
upon reaching e bus stop i was drenchedd!!
saw jianhao at e bus stop.. haas
in the bus i was feeling damn cold lurh .
took my file & went back sch ..
went for band & was told dat instructor was not coming
waste my effort to went back hm to take my file -.-
then sectional lo ... so boreeddd!

aft band went for dinner at cp.. wif kenneth & kiathao
saw simon & his fren.. 0.o
haas! so coincedentally, joshua they all also at cp -.-
chatted while eating ...
then went hm sweet hm :DDDD

P/S. ur parents gave u a name for a reason

so please kindly use it & not take it for granted

it's such a saddist when one doesn't appreciate one's name

ur name represents u & no one else

so it's rather unique

being an anonymous doesn't make u unique

it makes u look S-T-U-P-I-D

if u dare to do it, please be brave enuf to admit it

& not hide under e name of an anonymous

such a coward -.-

2009-02-04T05:30:00.000-08:00

waaa!!! tml got hist test and im still copying notes -.-
a total of 28 slides!!
can die man..i scared fail haish
from just now until now i still copying notes habent start on hmwks yet
tdy hab to stay up late again
i wan my slppp!!!!
so tireddd~

in the day i thought i could forget u
i tried not to think abt it
i keep myself occupied so dat i wont think of anyt
i dun wan to feel sad in school because thr are frens dat really cares for me
now at night, my mind began to think
shit! many memories just flashed through my mind
i really miss you
but i dun think we could start afresh le ....
as i felt dat u hab gotten over it
n dat it doesnt bother u le
n u dun love me anymore (dats wad u said to me)
i maybe shld really let go of it le
but i dun wan to!!! haish...
may be it takes time bah
i hope i can slowly forget u bah
.....

2009-02-04T02:18:00.000-08:00

i think i've gone crazy le
keep eating & eating
scared will gain weight leh . haix
i have kai qiao le
he alrd gotten over it & can go out with frens le
so i shld also get over it asap
since he alrd dun care
so why must i make myself sooo miserable
so, yeah get on with life
concentrate on studies bah
jiayous! brendaaaa (:

ok enough tok abt this le
i guess ur also not interested bah..
tdy school ...
hmms ..
dun noe why now going school super duper tired la
PE run, do warm-ups then standing board jump -.-
so no funn la lols!
maths ...
amaths; finally mdm chua nvr give hmwk so shuang
then english at library
the library so damn noisy la
so not like a library -.-
&&& my compo on GREED got an Excellent8
wa! nice one.. E8
english really cnt make it

aft school pei kewei & zarinar eat lunch
they eat, i nvr eat; no appetite
chatted abt biology haas
so horny as usual -.-
then they went for their cca
then i go hm lo..
got on the bus then jiu fell aslp le
really damn tired cnt really slp well last night
haish..
ok now going to go for dinner with mom le!!

2009-02-03T06:20:00.000-08:00

ENDED, EVERYTHING HAS COME TO AN END

GREAT, SO GREAT! HAAS.

SO NAIVE & FOOLISH OF ME .

"PROMISES ARE NEVER MEANT TO BE TRUE..."

YEAH!! IT'S SO GOODDD TO BE SINGLEEE^^

this few days was feeling quite down & sad

but i think im gonna be just fine now

after toking to you i totally gave up le

u didn't even bother to look at me..

maybe u've gotten over it liao so wad i was toking was just crap to u bah

so stupid of me to be crying in front of u..

i feel so innocent..breaking up not knowing the reason

but nvm it's fine with me..at least i noe wad kind of person u are le..

a hyprocrite ...

go ard telling ppl how much u love me, then in the end breaking up also u say

win liao lo..

i think i have to let go liao..no matter how much i love u also to u is nth alrd

so wads the point of hanging on?

might as well just lead a happy life..& this will become part of my memory never to be reviewed..

i think i shld end here le..alot of hmwks to do haas

it's over alrd..the END

2009-01-28T05:11:00.000-08:00

(remember this place?..the place whr u took me to & the time spent thr? i really miss those days...)

this year CNY still not bad

still got above $250 && still coming in^^

haas so happy.

ytd played blackjeck won $20

i only took out $2 haas

shld be lucky

tdy go back school haix sianx..

no mood to study lo

then whole day very tired :(

i didnt do almost all the hmwks

heehee

tml still got biology test

still got chi compo, letter and eng compo nd hand up tml

dun noe how im going to cope wif it

feel like ending my life sia

so many things to worry

aft school got a treat of pizza from ms yeow!!!

thanks ms yeow!!! ^^ love you loads.

hope to have more treats from u :)

aft dat went to meet yongthye & mitchell

at hougang mall

suppose to help yt wif his maths

instead he went round roaming for his phone-.-

(and just now he just told me he bought it liao)

then like dat roam until 7plus le

then i jiu went hm le

cos got alot of things to do

haix

before dat while waiting for them to come..went to walk ard

&& i passby those place above(the pics)

it reminds me of the past..

i really miss the past...

the time when u bring me to the swing to play

the time u bring me further down && sat on the chair to chat and i gave u smth

i really really miss it :(..

ok enough le i go study && do my hmwkss...

seriously no mood la, but no choice.

2009-01-24T06:34:00.000-08:00

recently went shopping for CNY things
bought shirt, dress, shorts, shoes &&&
a bag for FREE
haas

can see dat this year CNY delicacies are lesser
ohh.. so sad
so this year CNY no need scare of gaining weight
haas

ytd dun noe wad has got into me..
maybe i was figuring to use dat to break free from myself
to make me forget all abbt the saddness n emptiness bah
i've been trying to contact you for many many many many many many many dayssss
U NOE?
call until i feel like giving up
&& the worst thing is daT u go drink
i think u from bAd to worst..idk why
maybe we are both ruining ourself bah haix

ok back to CNY de mood
haas
...i realised dat every supermarkets are filled wif alot of ppl!!
human traffic jams at the counters
-.-
i still habent done my hmwksss
haix..
all e teachers very cruel de lo
instead of giving us red packets give us veryBIG 'goodie bags'-.-
thanks ar teachers..
aiya idk wad to post liao
seriously not much mood for CNY
bye peeps

wad happen?, baby

2009-01-19T05:18:00.000-08:00

tdy went school at 8am
almost late sia. heng!

assembly got ppl come perform
dont noe is clown or wad de
then aft dat they was telling us abt CREATIVITY -.-
so damn funny haas cos this time they ask teachers as volunteers (:
then during Emaths got class test
was quite easy except for the back part
haix..
then Amaths, chi, SS, bio
during lesson was very very tired
n my eyes were super super pain
pain pain :(
but cnt slp haix..
tdy biology ms fazleen early release(2.45pm) woots~

then went for band
tdy got CNY rehearsal. super bored then went down to the hall to join them
haas.
CHEW YONG THYE..called me as his doggy-.-
i also dun noe why so sudden 0.o
then he's the black guy(in cantonese)
then play play crazy crazy
hees..
aft CNY rehearsal then went cp wif esther they all
slowly one by one left
in the end left wif me, esther,simin,kenneth n kiathao
drank cup walker n was super full so nvr eat anyt
then baby came!!
was so damn happy^.^
but he was super tired :(
i dun noe why...
then laugh laugh at macs
then aft dat went hm
baby sent me to bus stop then kenneth pei me hm (:
cos baby going ben's house watch movie-.-
but at least i can see him
so happy^^
haas.

i still habent done my hmwkssss! -.-
die liao..

ily, baby :)

2009-01-18T03:12:00.000-08:00

i've been thinking alot over this few days
n crying alot too
i think im gonna turn crazy soon
someone please send me to IMH!!

i may be thinking too much
OR
i may be over sensitive
but hAb u ever think why i will think so much??
because i feel very insecure bah
i dun noe why but i think this shld be the way to describe it?
i feel insecure is because i sometimes will think dat u lied to me
i dun noe if u really did but this is the feeling i get
is not dat i dun trust u..i trust u, fully trust u
but would u let me trust u? dat really set me thinking
thr r too much things dat i just dun get it
is not dat i dun let u hab girl de frens..i dun control ur freedom of making frens

firstly, why r thr so many things dat u nvr told me abt?
shldn't i be the one to share ur probs wif u? to lighten ur burden?
in ur heart, i noe dat frens are the most impt to u
they may be no.1 in ur heart n i may be 2nd
ok, this i alrd dun mind le

secondly, rmb on our 3rd month anni?
ok u nvr pay phone bill then cnt contact me i can understand
u told jas to tell me sorry and happy 3rd month anni then ur line cut off
then dat really set me thinking
why in the first place u wont call me? since u can call jas, why cnt u call me n tell me?
why must tell her to tell me leh? i really dun noe why lurh

thirdly, u bought a soft toy for jas.
i heard from someone dat is u owe her de, i noe..
maybe again fren is more impt.
but the prob is u see arx
u get ur pay, n the first thing u do is u get wad u owe her
how abt the many many things dat u still owe me?
is not dat im eyeing over the presents but u think lah
does this sounds right??
n also u owe simin de money leh? i think u didnt intend to return?? maybe?
i dun noe. i really really dun noe!!

fourthly, when i ask u to go out, u would say dat u wan to stay at home
do wad? play games
ok im fine wif dat also.
but when ur frens ask u to go out u would give a different answer.
why leh? i also dun noe

u may say dat im jealous, maybe?
then just take it dat im jealous
but why will i get jealous?
it is also none other then u right?
u're the reason dat i get jealous
maybe these are just the seldom probs
but suey suey i just happened to noe it
whr were u when i needed u the most?
whr?! whr were u?!!

let me ask u:
do u love me? really love me alot alot?
i love u, alot alot. n i also noe dat u love me
but idk if u love me
(sounds confusing eh? im also confused)
in my entire life, i treasure this relationship the most
THE MOST!! get dat?!
im not so involve wif previous relationship, u noe?!
but this time im sure of my feelings
i dun noe how much u treasure it but i noe dat i will still love u
even if u dun care abt me or worst still it may be one-sided
even though previously i told u dat i hab thought of breaking up, i really dun want to n dun wish to because i noe dat i'll be very very sad if dat were to happen
i may be suffering alone. be it tired or anyt
but no matter how difficult or tiring it is for me, im prepared to face it.
i wont give up
because u're the reason dat stops me from giving up
even though u dun care abt me or giving me cold shoulders,
i will still love u as much
i just dun wan the feeling to fade.
i really misss the beginning of this relationship
......

baby,i love you

2009-01-15T02:48:00.000-08:00

tdy go school .
first lesson ENG. i found myself getting more & more lame-.-
die liao. nat told me to shuddap :( she cnt take it le..
now i everyday nd bring dictionary sia!!! so damn heavy -.-

something also happen in school . haix...
then aft school got band.
i was rushing to eat my lunch
ask shimin pei me open room then we eat as fast as possible.
shimin as ever slow de but tdy in a rush so not bad le la^^ jiayous! shimin(:
haas.
band, instructor thr to check on our set piece lo.
haix SYF comp. is coming nearer & nearer.
stress arx!! still got studies also-.-
tdy in band, dat joshua hor AA sia..
act cute during practice then hai me laugh non-stop & like a mad woman-.-
he shld cut down some of his fats haas!
sorry sorry no offence!
then kimberly, xinyuan & munir came to visit us.
MUNIR! munir leh. so rare -.-
hoohoohoo~
then aft band went home lo^^ & now blogging(:
i still got loads of hmwks leh!!!! haix.
im going crazy le!! so i think will hab more often mood swings
must understand.

so sad..imissyou,baby:(

2009-01-14T01:31:00.000-08:00

lolx.
so many ppl ask me update blog haas .
now updating^^
sorry readers for my MIA-ING :P
this year is a new year, and a tough year for me
got o'levels, SYF and idk still got wad things coming up
but i still got my baby:) lovehim loads!!

this year not so relaxing anymore..haix
cnt slack liao BUT i really dun hab the motivation la
IDIOT i HAte myself!!
"ok brenda relax.. u will work hard & must really work hard .."

14Jan08(1 more mth to V's day)
this year v different from last year
this year got banding haix
&& worst of ALL my eng in 4th band, emaths in 3rd band!!!
argh!! i HAte myself!! why i do so badly in sec3?!
"ok relax brenda.. in worst band does not mean end of the world .. u can do it de!"
tdy loads of hmwks!!
haix..
but the now at home, i dun feel lyk doing all the hmwks!!
thinking of alot alot of things that make me feel uneasy
wad is happening?! i noe daT u love me but if u dun show it how do i noe dat u love me?
sometimes i feel dat u dun care abt me de lo..
i feel very very insecure u noe..
sometimes this thought came to my mind "maybe being ur fren is better than being ur stead. at least u will pei ur frens when they ask u too..i ask u go out lyk very wei qu you lyk dat"

ok this is just my thoughts..i hope all these thoughts will disappear asap!!
"stay happy n workhard!!" is my this year's motto^^

tml having band..so tired-.-
i HAte SYFs!! so tough..
~updated~

2008-08-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

HEY! ppl..this is my new blog :DDD

previously dat blog siao siao liao
so i created a new one :)))

tdy went skl..in the morning
i was telling everybody dat i was on tv!!!
haas
i really crazy liao..lolx
[reading period]
i was reading 'new moon' by stephenie meyer
this was the second book.
the first is 'twilight'
nice book mans!!
abt romance between a girl n a male vampire :))
the girl is call bella the vampire is edward..EDWARD IS HANDSOME!!
haas
the second book edward left sia so sad dun noe when's he's cuming back
the book is boring w/o him
lolx
[social studies]
i was actually telling the cher dat i was on tv!!
telling the whole class i was on tv!!
lolx
then carry on.....
study abt the stages of conflicts..
i didnt really listen much though
haas
was busy reading my storybook
lolx..storybook is even more interesting then the lesson
haas
[LCE]
when ms yeow came in..i was telling her dat i was on tv!!
when actually at the start of the skl i hab alrd told her abt it
lolx
the class was habing role play
our group hab alrd done ours last week..
then we had MOVIEEE!!!
haas
i love ms yeow man :)))
[amaths]
going through TYS
was very tired..so slpt through the whole lesson
cher didnt care much cos i think she noes dat im tired..
[recess]
had prata
haas
will be dying of diabetics soon..lolx
[english]
was again ms yeow :DDD
had to complete our speech writing..
THEN we can hab our MOVIEEE!!!
haas
as usual :) love her loads!!
[emaths]
do textbook exercise..
on trigonometry
chiong finish e homeworks
so that i could read my storybook
p.s im soooo addicted to the book :ppp
[chinese]
do zuo ye
lolx
boring..oh ya i habent done it yet
lolx..now then rmb :)
also got tell cher dat im on tv
haas
as usual..she was lyk 'huh..really got go thr arx'
lolx
[bio life science]
also got tell dat instructor dat im on tv
haas..crazy me
as usual theory part was boring..
experiment was on the agar dish..dun noe wad bacteria thingy
lolx
[aft skl]
waited for simin n peiyun..
then went to cp
meet esther thr..to buy books to write for t'chers' day
haas
then toktoktok..
~homesweethome~ :)))

2008-08-25T08:33:00.001-07:00

FENG TIAN WEI, LI JIA WEI, WANG YUEGU, TAO LI !!!!! :DDD

*we've got FTW's AUTOGRAPH!! whoo~*

GO! TEAM SINGAPORE!! :DDD

tdy got chinese st..ms tan cheat our feelings :(
tell us dat got wan cheng ju zi..zhong he tian kong
in the end dun hab..
then also tell us dat cheng yu from 116-125
in the end is 116-126
cheat our feelings..lolx
ok nvm then [recess]..
then chem..mr tang nvr come but got hmwks
as usual..lolx
[social studies]
jap students come to our class..
mr lee nvr intro them then they left liao..
so sad :(((
[chinese]
complaint to cher!!
lolx
[english]
ms yeow nvr come cos got oral..
watch movie but i nvr cos v boring
i read my book..2nd book le;new moon
v nice:)))
[bio life science]
was quite interesting only the theory part i wan slp liao
experiment was fun:)
ok la actually..
[meet TEAM SPORE!!]
kewei n me
chiong to raffles city aft the life science thingy
meet up wif jasmine
when we reach thr they were abt to leave le
aft dat we folo the crowd i was being push ard lo
so damn squeezy n they juz push i was almost being pushed down from the escalator..lolx
then aft dat ran to catch up wif them..
first time i so crazy..lolx
me n kewei didnt manage to get feng tian wei's autograph
but jasmine got it sign on her table tennis bat
that was gd:)))
i juz took n took n took alot of pics..
aft jasmine got her autograph..we got interviewed by many ppl
lolx

[PICTURES!! TEAM S'PORE :DDD]

Jasmine's tabletennis bat with FTW's SIGNATURE!!!

Wang Yuegu, Li Jia Wei, Feng Tian Wei, Tao Li (left to right).

Whoo~ on the tv cos in front alot of ppl cnt squeezy through =.=

Feng Tian Wei looking up!!! whoo~ :DDD

still Feng Tian Wei !!! :DDD SHE ROCKS!!!

i was on the tv!! on every news:)))
i was behind Li Jia Wei when she got interviewed :DDD
can see my toot face on the tv..lolx
i was taking photo..dats y i look so toot
lolx but at least im on tv :DDDDD
my greatest achivements..haas
i recorded every single news..haas
so HAPPY!! :DDDD
ok gtg to slp liao..i scared i cnt slp well siol
haas
ok gd nites n swt dreamx :DD